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Lesson 1

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Dear Friend,

It's hilarious to me how I now know the truth about why no one made fun of me during freshman year. I was dating a handsome guy, someone who played soccer, was pretty much liked by the whole school and wasn't considered a "loser." All that changed when I broke up with him and started dating someone else, someone I related to better: someone who was considered the stereotype "loser" like me.

And so it began, the gossip and the rumors. Not like we care, really. It's just so...peculiar how people in a Catholic school are no better than those in a public school. A friend of mine who moved told me that the classes at her other school were a lot quieter, unlike at my school where everyone is so loud and disrespectful.

It seems as though my boyfriend and I are the only ones who take our faith seriously. Everyone else doesn't or they're not even Catholic and feel like bashing it is their whole purpose in life. I'm almost just as miserable there as I was back in my elementary school, which was also Catholic. Not meaning to make the Catholic faith look like it's a terrible religion, because there are the select few who actually know how to act like a Catholic, but most of the people there just don't know how to live it. Not saying I do, for I have much to learn as well, but I certainly understand a lot more of it than they do.

And it seems as though that's another reason why I am made fun of, for being all "pious" and the "Jesus Freak". A friend of mine told me that that doesn't make sense, and I agree, however maybe they judge because they don't understand why I do the things I do. Why am I still kind to the ones who talk behind my back? Why do I smile even though there's people who laugh at me? Why do I still stand tall when there are people who try and bring me down everyday?

What I have observed from my boyfriend that my ex didn't have is that he appreciates me more. He's terrified of losing me and is doing whatever he can so that that won't happen. He's fighting for me. I read a poem in English class that was by Dickinson, and it was about those who fail a lot or just don't have what they need the most appreciate it a lot more than those who succeed and have what they need most. My ex seemed to have what he needed, but he needed a little push, and that's where I came in, I suppose. He's in college now because of me. And for the year we were together, he just stopped fighting for me, stopped being sweet, was more business...he left out the romantic part of the relationship. You see, I like a combination of business and romance; a balance. He didn't have that. My new boyfriend does; and he seems to value me more and is gentler.

I hope everything works out for the best with us. We've only been together for a month (this coming January 5th will be two), and already we've had struggles threaten to break us. I've asked for prayers to keep us going strong, and I ask again to whoever's reading this, for you can never have too many prayers.

Sincerely,
Chery
Why am I writing this for you to see? There's no hard lesson to learn here. This is how I see it, and maybe you interpreted it differently:

:bulletblack: If your boyfriend doesn't seem to value or appreciate you, let him go, no matter how hard it seems. And if you know he's not mature to let you go (even though my ex was mature enough), you shouldn't have gotten in a relationship with him in the first place.

:bulletblack: If you're falling in love with someone else whom you know can make you happier--while you're in a relationship with someone else--it's time to burn that bridge and go with that other person, but you shouldn't hop from one guy/girl to another if even he/she doesn't make you happier after all.

However you interpreted it, I hope you enjoyed it as well. :)

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KiethHepron11's avatar
Just saying, the two biggest atheists i know went to a Catholic school.

This was... *goes to read it again* Curse you art block.. can't even remember what i read five minutes ago.. even though it was deep and impactful..
Derp!


Oh yes, I have learned this leason recently, about if your lover dosn't treat you with respect.It's hard to let go of the past. I mean, We've been best friends since we met. over 3 years now.I miss what we had, i wish i could have it back, but now i understand how she feels about it. I respect that, now that i'm no longer blind to it.

I hope you and your boyfriend are happy together. You have my prayers Love.